out of the other side

there is a share of peace that annoys me a little too...

here, 

in this new house

the bills are taken care of 

somehow

our dog grants me company

but overall

I just can´t seem 

to pretend that everything 

is okay.

I feel obnoxious, angry, irritated

fears

my stomach wants to burst out to tears.

I shouldn´t be so uneasy

but as long as you aren´t here

my lips burning

my finger´s fevered

No, it is not alright

you, out of sight

and I

sharing our deepest lullabies

nevermind

 if you steadily decided

I´d be here,

we´d live more

I´d try hard

we´ll make love

and we´ll be fine

I´ll recognize you

out of the other side

and I´ll be yours.

I don´t promise 

everything will be solved

but my heart will be soothe

because you´d have had

returned.

Para João Oliveira de Souza Pinto